HOLA!!!!!

I miss the stage so much and I didn't really realize it until tonight.
Tressie,Annie,Celia,and I ventured to watch the Carroll show choirs do their big dress rehearsal and while I really enjoyed being an observer of it all for once, there was a tinge of desire to perform pulling at me the whole time.
I miss the costumes,the weekends spent at competitons creating mischief,singing my heart out,dancing,the friendships I made,bus rides spent in the back seats,hotel partys,the competitive spirit,the essence of being a performer.
I'll never have an opprotunity like that again, and I really do believe I took it for granted while I was a part of it.
Never did I think I'd miss it as much as I do right now.
It's an odd feeling really.

I've been thinking about Audie alot lately.
It never seems real to me that she is actually gone.
We were never super close, but it still is completely mind boggling to me that a girl that young and spirited could lose her life just like that.

I had alot of fun hanging out with Tress,Celia,and Annie tonight.
I always enjoy our Firefly time, and I hope that we can start hanging out more outside of that as well.

I've been writing so much lately.
I'm filling my newest journal up like crazy.
I hate that I never write in this the way I write for myself.
This is like my online journal more so than anything.
Oh well, perhaps I'll start taking time to write something meaningful.