Again and Again

I can't seem to drop these lonely feelings I've been battling the last couple of months. Even when things are starting to really go my way I still feel down and out at times. I've been trying to accept the facts that people change, people move on, people are selfish, people grow apart, and people give up. They're hard concepts to grasp at times. I want things to go back to the way they were 4 months ago, 7 months ago, better yet a year ago. I miss feeling needed and missed and wanted around. Really, it's selfish of me, I have two amazing best friends who will both be coming home soon, a wonderful boyfriend who puts up with my occassional crap, great friends I enjoy seeing when possible. I should have nothing to complain about. Maybe I'm missing all the wrong people and maybe I'm missing all the wrong memories, but I can't help it. It's a weird feeling when someone you know becomes someone you knew. When the boy you love becomes the boy you loved. It's weird when a best friend becomes a distant figure. When the people you are the closest to become the people you were the closest to. Life is pretty fond of making me a depressing whiney life reflector. whoops.