Control yourself.

I want so many different things out of life right now and it's overwhelming me.
My thoughts run rampant and I can never catch them.
Every morning I wake up I have some form of anxiety from overanalyzing,overthinking,overdoing.

I wish I had more legit friends,I wish I had a boyfriend,I wish I was more confident in choosing journalism as a major,I wish he would ask me to hang out again,I wish I had my own place,I wish people weren't so shady,I wish I had more people to hang out with,I wish he would call me,I wish I would have gone away for college rather than decide to wait two years,I wish I was more creative,I wish I could say what I thought more often,I wish I was more interesting,I wish my job was more exciting,I wish I wasn't so shy,I wish my life didn't feel so cluttered,I wish Fort Wayne was more interesting,I wish I was a do-er,I wish I knew how to meet people,I wish I was more confident,I wish I could lose 20 pounds,I wish we would get back together,I wish I was more responsible.

What's the good in wishing??
Maybe I need to take the initiative in my life for once.
It just doesn't seem as plausible as it sounds.