It's not you, it's me.

What does that even mean?
Granted, those weren't the exact words used, but it was the general jist of things.
And what does being friends consist of?
Do I still text everyday? Do I ask to hang out? Do I call? Do I get mad when he doesn't communicate with me? Do I just let it go and act like I don't care?
This has happened before but I was just as lost then.
I don't know how to be just friends, because that's not what I want.
It's selfish I know but I can't help it.
I just really want someone to be there for me and I was so close to it and now I'm back at square one and I don't want to be.
I'm making myself sick over it...thinking,over-analyzing,contemplating,replaying situations over in my mind.
What did I do wrong??

It's snowing out and I love it, but I hate driving in it.
Mostly because my mom freaks out and treats me like I've never driven before.
They say there could be an ice storm again.
I really hope not, last time I got real bored real fast.

Work is half way over.
Today is actually kind of going fast and I like it.
I want to go home and just sleep.

I've been being kind of anti-social lately.
I'm really not trying to be.